Wednesday, April 10          Psalm 20          Rev. Rachel Heyduck

I pray that the LORD answers you whenever you are in trouble. Let the name of Jacob’s God protect you. 2 Let God send help to you from the sanctuary and support you from Zion. 3 Let God recall your many grain offerings; let him savor your entirely burned offerings. Selah

4 Let God grant what is in your heart and fulfill all your plans. 5 Then we will rejoice that you’ve been helped. We will fly our flags in the name of our God. Let the LORD fulfill all your requests! 6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed one; God answers his anointed one from his heavenly sanctuary, answering with mighty acts of salvation achieved by his strong hand. 7 Some people trust in chariots, others in horses; but we praise the LORD’s name. 8 They will collapse and fall, but we will stand up straight and strong. 9 LORD, save the king! Let him answer us when we cry out!

My mom always had this saying when I was feeling like others were thinking ill of me, “No one thinks about you as much as you think about yourself.” It is a phrase that Steve and I remind each other of often. You know those moments when you think someone is upset by something you said or did? Or you worry that people are annoyed with you? We all have those moments, and no one is thinking about you as much as you are. We think about ourselves a lot. I mean a lot.

For me, this sometimes seeps into my desire to hold onto “my stuff.” I struggle to give things away in fear that I will need it someday, or that those extra dollars will make a big difference. This is not to say that I don’t like to spend, but I sometimes really struggle to give. I internally want to be a selfless, giving person. Someone who easily just gives money or stuff to others when they are in need, but it is a struggle, in part because I worry about me. I struggle to pray that others have all that they need because I am often concerned about my family or myself having all that I need.

I love Psalm 20 in part because it is a shift in focus. It is on you. It is not a psalm about the author. The writer is not wallowing in anguish or praising God for all God has done in his life, but seeking hope and assurance for another. The number one way that I know to get out of the thinking about me so much is to do things for others. This is why I think I so strongly tend towards a heart of mission. I want others to know the assurance and love that I have felt, and the best way to do that is to give things away, mainly to give something of meaning to others. Giving freely is never an easy task, but the end result is so lovely.

Prayer: God, we ask for your guidance and help to take our complaints to you, and move our hearts to giving joyfully.